delusional

these feelings i found surfaced, dig and bury further
out of reach but move me from the ground underneath
into places, next to people
i don't want to be
i tried to stand still for you, the creator
i'm shifting, they throw me away
from, like you
i could achieve the impossible
if you believed in the possibility what i say is true
you don't want to
and i can't change you.
delusions
an end to justify the means
that won't falter, isn't weary
to blossom
rather than reincarnate to another state of being
i didn't need to change
i needed to get better
you're making me so sick
i'm so sick
trying to become
who i already am
in a way you can see
as it stands and so it goes
perhaps, in the end
you're the one
who doesn't deserve me.
i would have agreed