i think you've reached your peak

if you want a real shot at happiness you must work now.

cry about it later.

wait until you have the means to start indulging yourself

wait until you have the resources to prove the world wrong

feel inadequate now.

feel worthy later.

& sometimes you're going to say well it can't get any worse,

& you'll go to work and hear the dishwasher say,

believe me these will be your best days...

uh oh

oh no

nobody loves you

nobody hates you

you are especially vanilla

& bland

replaceable, forgettable, disposable

& very, very, very dim

but you'll shine one day,

if you make it through these days.

& maybe you can focus on your personality instead

forget it

hide away

till you have something to offer

wouldn't want to be too late

wouldn't want your time to come

& nobody left to witness it

care about it

envy it

regret it

& love you

like they couldn't before

like you constantly try

& repeatedly fail

to do so now.

maybe that's the problem, you know it is

but you can't dwell on that

because you've tried to change it but you can't

stop trying to fight it

it only makes you feel worse,

if that's even possible.

being dependent on shit that doesn't matter

but maybe you know better

people may lie and say it doesn't

they don't dare acknowledge the power

of our ever shallow existence

there's a chance for you yet, kid

how does everyone else make it look so easy?

that's what you need

fake it

never make it

but look good tryin'

it's all about appearances

that can't be true

but you know it is